I cried for you…

On February 14, 2006, Posted by , In Blog, With No Comments

Not because it’s Valentine’s Day but, I have (had) a friend that I have to say I really loved a lot. We met back in 1999 sort of the way good things happen. I was in the parking lot of one of the local botanical gardens sitting in my car after having taken a couple selfpics. This bearded guy walks past me, we stare at each other, and eventually start up a conversation. We exchanged info and that was the beginning of our friendship. He, unfortunately was partnered but, they didn’t have sex anymore. I knew that because we saw each other often. Eventually, he confirmed it. Early last year he mentioned some illness he was having and got several checkups to eventually find out he had cancer. He got chemo, lost lots of weight, energy, and all that goes along with it. I last spoke with him in early November at his place of work. I kept calling and leaving messages but, no answer. I knew where he lived but, certainly was not going to go to the front door asking questions. I kept calling his office to hear his sweet voice on the answer machine. I wasn’t sure if he was upset with me or really ill. Finally, his office phone has a different voice. I called his job and got the shocking news that I knew I didn’t want to hear. He died 1 Dec., 2005. I was speechless, said goodbye, and cried. I am really sad today. I lost the one person in my life that I could honestly say I loved. Maybe, I’ll say more about him later. Maybe not. I wish we had a different relationship, one where he didn’t have a partner but, he told me from the very beginning he wasn’t going to leave his man (even though I never asked him to).

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  1. ruralrob says:

    I’m so sorry to hear this.


  2. vaneramos says:

    I’m so sorry. I’ve been thinking much about the path of love today; the strange turns it takes us on. I can’t imagine how it must feel losing someone that way: no one else to share the sorrow, really. My thoughts are with you, though.

  3. admin says:

    Yes, not having a comforting shoulder to cry on today isn’t easy… especially, when I have student to attend to.

  4. zhenzhi says:

    sweet heart. hugs. xo

  5. niyabinghi says:

    big hugs to you today.