one more time jawnbc
This time I was a bit more self-reflective…
+ Have I been honest and true within myself?
+ Do I have higher goals within for self-development and how do I achieve that without becoming a monk living on a mountaintop?
+ Can I reach the level of spirituality, inwardly seeking truth, that I feel it possible?
+ Since I have chosen a creative path, how do I understand the measurement of success in this realm because, since the 1950s, artistic success is measured in financial terms, not on how the work might affect ones historical and cultural legacy within ones society or culture?
+ Is it truly possible for two men to love each other in all the ways that I had seen my parents? (This one has been somewhat realized although I remain single. I don’t find the typical “gay lifestyle,” in most of the variations I’ve seen other the years, attractive since I don’t subscribe to the leather, hankies, rainbows, lisping, and calling out “girlfriend” type stuff. Never have! When I found love, it was short lived but, the time stays in my memories. My friend is deceased.)